27 May 2009

on fate?

i am starting to think that your first 20-30 years prepare you for the life you are going to live in ways you can't anticipate and may never realize.

i could elaborate on my reasons for thinking this, but i don't think i have a firm enough grasp on them myself, yet. it's strange when you reach a point where you have a conviction not about the way things should be, but about the way things are. and then you realize that this makes perfect sense in the context of your life, that it grows logically out of your experiences. we are not designed to fuck up. we are designed to do what we need to do, in such a way that most people may not even realize they are doing it. think about it: in one way or another, everything you have been or done has prepared you for this moment. and this moment is preparing you for the next one, or for some non-sequential future time that you can't even foresee. not only are we made to do what we need to do, but we are built such that each person's path intersects with each other person's path to help them get where they are going too.

i don't know if i believe in fate, inasmuch as i don't know if i believe that each person's life has only one possible outcome. but i do know i believe that ultimately, everything can only ever be okay.

2 comments:

Troll said...

It's weird. I was having almost this same conversation in Cup and Chaucer.I ended up talking about my brother after she told me about London. It's the longest conversation we've ever had. And we came to the conclusion that it all does work out in the end. Things will be okay. A lot of people say this sort of thing, but I think the important point is that you have to want them to be okay. You can't passively go through your life expecting that everything is just going to happen as it should with zero effort from you. I think it takes a lot longer to learn what you need to do (and what you need to NOT do) in order for things to work out for you.

Anonymous said...

Maybe things just are the way they are.
You generally have control over your actions and you do need to take responsibility for the consequences, but at the same time, it's more important to be aware of what is happening in the present moment than to dwell on the past or to worry about the future.

~B.