29 September 2016

Freedom Day 2016

Two years after escaping my abusive relationship, I still...
...think of him every day.
...have a physical reaction to reading his name.
...struggle with feelings of worthlessness and inadequacy.
...wonder if my finances will ever be what they were before.
...cringe to see his handwriting in my home.
...have a hard time trusting new people.
...double-check my locks.
...double my heart rate every time I see a grey Jeep.
...smile with relief every time I find my car where I left it.
...am not legally divorced.

Two years after escaping my abusive relationship, I now...
...live independently.
...make plans for my own future.
...speak honestly about my experiences.

...have money left after I pay the bills.
...manage my mental health.
...set and maintain the boundaries I need.

...go where I want, when I want, with whomever I want.
...am dating two fascinating people who respect me.
...have confidence I didn't notice I'd lost.


Anonymous said...

There is so much life in these lists (to state the obvious).
It fills my heart to see you authentically happy.


Anonymous said...

I cried reading this list for some reason. I think it's mostly because of the tremendous courage I know it takes to fight the psychological destruction you've encountered. I miss you, and I want to catch up before I need to leave again. Thank you for being you and for being here, always.