realization:

I AM AN AMALGAMATION OF ALL I HAVE EVER KNOWN.

to cut out my entire life prior to this moment [college] would be not only impractical, but impossible. i would need to delete not only half my buddy list, but most of my itunes library, a large portion of my hard drive, all my memories of anywhere-but-here. i would need to burn my journals and most of my bedroom at home. as well as a good portion of the stuff i keep with me here. many of the books i own. i can't change the way i know to feel about others based on the ways i've felt about you. there is no way to remove you--either of you--any of you. nor should i want to--

i am you.